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Still you think she's forever,
yesterday and tomorrow...
but no-one knows where she is.
Stillyou swear that you can win her
and your prayer is that she'll want you;
aware--once a saint, now you're a sinner
and your sins are going to haunt you
when the lady with her skin so white
like something out of Edgar Allan Poe
holds your hand so very tight
and you hope that she'll never let go.
Easy targets, easy crosswords, easy life:
these key margins leave you balanced on
the knife,
bleeding darkly...
in the end it all comes down to sleazy
bargains.
That hidden key--you tried so hard to
find it,
all you can conceive is the effort to
be worthy.
Even now you need tobe reminded
that La Belle Dame is without mercy.
The lady with her skin so white
--you never did quite catch her name--
now she holds you in the night
and she'll never let go again,
she'll never let go again.
While the holocaust rages around you,
be the eye of the storm;
though the extent of disaster astounds
you,
forearmed is forewarned.
You may have passed time in happier ways,
but there are other mountains to blimb:
you've never lived as you're living today--
now is the time!
Stand straight, though your back breaks
from trying,
walk on--even now you must strive.
Don't wait--while you're waiting, you're
dying;
be strong, it's your place to survive.
The universe is doubtless unfolding
just exactly as it should
and these dreams of remorse or foreboding
won't do you any good.
The joy, the passion, possessions you
own, the bitterness and the pain,
the end of everything you've ever known:
all these are ordained.
Stand straight looking into the future,
walk on--we've each got our own lives.
Don't wait for a guru or tutor,
be strong--it's your place to survive.
Stand straight, looking over your shoulder,
walk pon: though it hurts, you're alive.
Don't wait...if you wait it's all over;
be strong--it's your right to survive.
So he tells all his problems to his friends
and relations,
exposes his neuroses to their view.
They accept as fact every masochistic
mumble of his act--
how could they know what was false and
what was true?
Sometimes when he wakes
he feels he's walked into a dream
but all it takes
to remind him things are what they seem
is the belief
that the man behind the mask can really
dance
Pirouetting smile
he sees himself cavorting,
Pierrot for a while
before aborting
to find relief
in the shelter of the dark, most telling
mask.
After all the pantomimes are ended
he peels all the make-up off his face
to reveal, beneath, the teras running
all down his cheeks:
alne, he opens to the world....but it's
much too late.
He's been left, in the end, without a
face.
If only I could phrase satisfactory words
in conversation, to make my passion heard...
If only...
Meurglys III, he's my friend,
the only one that I can trust
to let it be without pretence
--there's no-one else.
It's killing me, but in the end
there's no-one else I know is true,
there's none in all the masks of men,
there's nothing else
but my guitar...
I suppose he'll have to do.
Talking in tongues is easy when you know
how,
quite pleasing, but still nothing works
out right.
Pressurised lungs, heart bleeding, you'd
better slow down
and show that you can make it through
the night.
However dark it seems, the present is
just the present,
beyond it no further darness lies concealed
and through these desperate dreams,
this longing for friends and comfort,
you know that in the end all will be revealed.
When no more plants or dogs or rooms are
there to hear you,
and no-one is left near you, then you'll
see:
in the end there's only you and Meurglys
III,
and this is just what you chose to be.
(Fool!)
Though I know all this is just escape,
I run because I don't know where the prison
lies.
In songs like this I can bear the weight...
I'm running still,
I shall until,
one day, I hope that I'll arrive.
Wait--there's something unclear,
there's soemthing I fear now drawing close.
Could it be you? Whose is that voice?
Is it now time to make a chice?
Ah--that irrational pain!
This ridiculous brain now bursts with
joy.
Could it be me? Could it be now?
Should I begin to take my vows?
I will return:
as I live, as I breathe, as I burn
I swear I will come through,
with my hands stretching out in the dark,
with my eye pressed up tight to the glass,
wondering if it's all been true.
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